Prom was coming up, my sister's 40th birthday was coming up, work deadlines are ever-present, a pancake breakfast was occurring without me but I was trying to prep ahead of time for what I could do, I'm in the middle of teaching a youth bible study, the Tax deadline loomed, and I had other sporadic things going on.
I inevitably let people down, and even more, let myself down with things that I thought should be done. I didn't ask my daughter how her school trip went; I didn't have a present to take to my sister; and I apparently didn't tell anyone at church that I wouldn't be at the pancake breakfast.
One thing I feel that I am learning this last year is that while I say I'm fallen, I need grace, and I love that Jesus gives me the kingdom of heaven, I still live like I can be superwoman and that I should be more organized so I can get everything done. Yes, I do need to delegate more, and yes, lists are something I am not good at and want to get better at, but I feel like sometimes that my lack of ability to do this makes me a less-than-perfect Christian.
There is no such thing as a perfect Christian.
Lists will not make me better. I want to get better at them, but that's not sanctification.
Delegation will not make me a better leader. I want to show others they can handle responsibility, but that's not sanctification.
Having an organized, well-designed house will not make me fit into Southern culture. Jesus makes me fit in where I need to be.
Moving the product forward at work with cool features is something I should do, but the fact that I have a hard time doing it, is not a failing of Jesus' work in me.
From Romans 8:
35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? 36 As it is written,
“For your sake we are being killed all the day long;
we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered.”
we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered.”
37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Holy Spirit, make these words real to me. When I let people down, remind me of Your grace and comfort. And that you have knit me together to be the person I am. Help me praise You for that.
