You would not believe the freedom I experienced this weekend being 1) away from work; 2) away from the house; 3) away from rules in general. Look, I know you have to have ethics, and for me as a Christian, I trust God to lead me away from situations that are wrong and in a place that He doesn't want me to be.
As a mid-thirties adult, however, my life is built around things to do. AND I AM ALWAYS BEHIND. I am constantly thinking of things I didn't get done, that I have to do to prepare for the future, even that I should have done differently. While getting ready to go to Atlanta, I realized that I was supposed to teach Children's Church on Sunday, and that I had to go into Atlanta later than planned because of my daughter's first varsity cheerleading experience at a football game. I had to sort it out. Stuff like this happens daily.
This last weekend though...I didn't do anything but pay attention to which celebrities I wanted to see, which panels I wanted to go to, what I wanted to eat for lunch, and what I wanted to buy. I hid behind people dressed as Jedi Masters, as Doctor Who fans, as Browncoats, as Klingons, as elves, as Cookie Monsters. There was mass anonymity in the randomness of the costumes. And I didn't have to decide anything for anyone else and feel the weight of the world. Sure, there were schedules. And budget constraints. But there wasn't the feeling of the constant pressure that I normally feel.
What a blessed relief. Thank you, Lord.
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