It has been a tough year

I've been pensive this December. Well, I think I've been pensive for much of the year. It's been a tough year.

I'm not going to re-hash why. But I am thinking of a sermon I heard today. My pastor shared a story that happened right after the death of one of our elder's children. She died when she was 33, about five years ago. The family was all gathered together, solemnly praying and grieving. All of a sudden, there was singing from the mentally disabled grandson in the kitchen. He sang "Joy to the World" loudly. He was shushed, but it didn't work. Isn't that the way it is? Even in our mess, even when there is horrible grief, Jesus breaks in and provides light. That's the way it's supposed to be.

I have been reflecting quite a bit on theology this year. What is it I believe, why do I believe certain things; these are not quick answers. My friend Amanda told me something recently, though, which I really like: "your theology is what drives how you live, it affects your day-to-day." It drives how you treat people, how you shape your life rules, how you guide your children, how you work. What you believe about sin, what you think of God's sovereignty, what you see in Jesus' work and righteousness - it's such a big deal. And I am grateful my eyes have been opened to it. Soli Deo Gloria. Merry Christmas.